In Matthew 5:16, Jesus is talking, during his Sermon on the Mount, about how “…your light must shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your heavenly Father”.
In 1 Peter 4:10, it says that “as each has received a gift, use it to serve one another, as good stewards of God’s varied grace”.
Now think a moment about both these statements. I don’t think God is just saying to take the gifts that you have been given, the obvious ones, and use them to glorify Him. But He is also telling us that we can find something deep within ourselves that we are good at and let it grow.
So often, we get caught up in this mind-trap of “spiritual gifts”. In Romans 12, Gifts of the Spirit are defined as (a) perceiving, (b) serving, (c) teaching, (d) encouraging, (e) giving, (f) ruling, and (g) mercy. Most of us define gifts in terms of one’s abilities and talents. So if we are not good at things like encouragement, faith, or service, where do we go? It seemed that only the most faithful Christians or those specially called by God were given such qualities.
I knew very little about spiritual gifts when I devoted my life to Christ in my 40s. I watched from the sidelines for a short while and then jumped in and served where I could. I served at the bookstore which I understood and then one summer signed up for summer childcare help. After a couple of months of drool and snotty noses, I headed back to the bookstore understanding that I may be a germaphobe.
I then accepted a job at church, so served in lots of ways. Life Group leader, event coordinator, ministry lead, etc., etc. I was good at it, but at the same time, I still couldn’t directly tie anything that I was doing to a “spiritual gift.”
I couldn’t think of any talents or traits that corresponded to a single spiritual gift. Many, such as encouragement and evangelism, appeared to be intended for extroverts – not me. I felt underqualified for teaching, Jesus was too new to me. I have always been a strong leader, but is that what God wanted?
After I left working for the church, serving the Lord became even more challenging. God things weren’t placed right in front of me. It wasn’t daily God-work, God-talk, God-things. I wasn’t doing “God-work.” Life was just life.
The desire to serve was still there. There was just this ever-present question, “Is God still using me?” I was at a loss as to how to serve in the body of Christ.
I’ll spare you the details of my hidden spiritual gifts and how God chooses to use me but suffice to say, yes – He does use me – every day. In simple ways. In big ways.
I believe God works through us just as Jesus worked through the small boy who had five loaves of bread and two fish in John 6:1-14. There was nothing special about the boy himself. Even the disciples were dismissive of his offering — how could such a small amount of food possibly feed five thousand hungry people? But Jesus took what the boy had and multiplied it until his gift overflowed in its abundance.
None of us has anything that God needs. I think we often forget this. We have nothing He needs, but through His power and grace, He grows our meager offerings in ways we can’t even begin to imagine for His glory. When I felt I didn’t have what it took, God took my desire to serve and my leadership ability and turned it into a passion for ministry thus creating a space where people could feel welcomed spiritually and emotionally.
Learning about my own spiritual gifts has taught me to think, not in terms of what I couldn’t do, but in terms of what God can do through me. Spiritual gifts are given to us by God, not earned. Knowing that God’s power far exceeds mine freed me from much of the insecurity and fear I have felt about serving Him.
I now recognize that He uses me small and big. When I perform small acts of kindness, I recognize that this may be God using me to shed a little light on someone. When a couple in crisis comes to my husband and me, I acknowledge that this is God using us, using the wisdom He has given us, to guide His children. Small and Big.
The important thing is for us to simply come to God, so He can multiply and use who we are for His glory. I ran across this great article on myjewishlearning.com. I loved the explanation of gifts.
Parashat Terumah: Hidden Gifts
In building a sanctuary in the wilderness, God calls on the Israelites to contribute the gifts they don’t even know they have.
By Rabbi Nicole Auerbach
After the thunder and lightning of Mount Sinai, when the people were held at a distance lest they come too close to the Divine presence, God invites them to build a more intimate space where God can dwell among them as they continue their journey through the wilderness. In order to obtain the materials for this mishkan, or portable sanctuary, God says to Moses in Parashat Terumah: “Tell the Israelite people to bring me gifts; you shall accept gifts for me from every person whose heart so moves him.”
The medieval commentator Rashbam notes that the use of the word terumah, or gift, implies that this is something each person is to set aside from their own belongings. But as much as these gifts are supposed to come from the heart, it is not only the thought that counts. God is very specific about what is required: “These are the gifts that you shall accept,” God says. “Gold, and silver, and copper; blue, and purple, and crimson yarns; fine linen, and goat’s hair; tanned ram skins, dolphin skins, and acacia-wood, [along with oil, and spices, and incense].”
One of these things is not like the others. Yarn, ram skins, wood, incense — all of these make sense. But dolphin skins? Where on earth are the Israelites supposed to find dolphin skins in the middle of an arid wilderness?
The word that is translated as dolphin here is tachash. Rashi says the tachash is a multicolored animal. It’s called a “joy-color” in one ancient translation because it’s so proud of its many colors. According to the Talmud, the tachash has one horn on its forehead, and it comes to Moses’s hand just for the occasion, and then it disappears.
Upon receiving the list of materials, I imagine the Israelites saying, “OK, we’re all good on the copper and the goat’s hair, but if you think we’re going hunting for a rainbow unicorn, you have got to be kidding.” But remember, the gifts are supposed to be from their own belongings. They aren’t supposed to go hunt for the unicorn. They are being told that they already have it. All they have to do is offer it up.
When I first realized this, I immediately thought of my mother, who does not part with things easily. She is convinced that this ribbon, or button, or magazine is going to be just the thing that we need some day. If my mother were there when God made this request for the tachash, she would no doubt run off and come back with a rainbow unicorn that she had been keeping in her purse, just in case.
This is exactly how Rabbi Irwin Keller pictures the Israelites in the desert. He imagines “these poor children of Israel, carrying with them not only obviously precious items, but also odd and awkward items, which at the time they were packed were of no particular use. Hidden gifts, schlepped through the wilderness. Or not quite gifts, but gifts in potentia. Bric-a-brac, awaiting the chance to become holy regalia.”
We all have gifts, of course. Some of us have talent in music or art, or a knack for spreadsheets. These gifts, writes Keller, are our gold and silver. “But remember, the Mishkan was not only built out of gold and silver. There is also acacia wood, and unicorn skins, that have been lugged around, awaiting the opportunity to be useful.”
So Keller challenges us to look beyond our obvious gifts: “What’s the one gift that you have not offered yet? The one no one knows you carry. The one you might not even have thought of as a gift. The one that’s just been waiting. And ask yourself, ‘When will I offer it?’ When will you use it to build a Mishkan, to make this world a holier place?”
I would take Keller’s suggestion one step further, and suggest that we can’t always identify our gifts on our own. We are so used to defining ourselves by our particular roles — as lawyers or accountants, parents or caregivers — that we may not know that we also carry with us gifts of leadership, listening, or creativity. Just as we cannot perceive the rainbow contained within a ray of light until it is refracted through a prism, sometimes we can only identify our own gifts when they are reflected back to us through another’s eyes.
A few verses after identifying the acceptable material for the construction of the mishkan, God says that the ark that will hold the stone tablets containing God’s covenant with the people should be topped by two gold-winged figures, the cherubim. The cherubim are to “confront one another” — ish el achiv, God says, literally like a man to his brother. And it is between these two faces that God promises to make God’s presence known. How fitting that at the heart of this communal building project, which will take the gifts of everyone’s hearts, God will appear between two precious faces placed across from one another as though in conversation.
To identify our most precious, hidden gifts we need to spend some time face to face with our fellow community builders, to listen deeply and with curiosity, open to the possibility we will find a unicorn hiding in the pocket of the person across from us. And when we find one, to reflect back what we see. Because nothing feels better than someone else pointing out a gift that you didn’t know you had.
This, ultimately, is the recipe for building a community — to see one another and allow ourselves to be seen. In this way we can help one another find the hidden gifts we each hold, and then share them with open and generous hearts, allowing God’s presence to shine through and fill the space between us.
Next week, we delve a bit more into gifts of the spirit and how we stand ready for God to use us. In the meantime, do small things, do big things, and recognize God working through you in all of them.
For God and you,
Deb Bostwick
